Ms Fifikins

This is my third year of ruminating on Valentines Day on this blog. I think I’ve come to a state of acceptance. I am trying not to take an ‘If you can’t beat ‘em, join ‘em’ attitude, however I fear this is creeping in!

MIML™ has gone as far as asking me what I want, assuming that I am caught up in the consumer nightmare that is the international day of lerve!

So I am in a bind! I would love to be spoilt! Some of the ideas he threw around are tempting- like ink work, however I think that I would prefer it to be a general gift for no reason, not one caught up in a specific day. Which really makes no sense! I accept gifts at Christmas, even though it is not necessarily a day I ‘celebrate’ in the traditional religious sense. Then again I suppose Valentine’s Day has little to do with the saint for whom the day is commemorating.

So perhaps I just be greedy and ask for something. Not sure what- yes I love jewellery and flowers and technology and even chocolates, but perhaps just something totally random and unexpected? Perhaps just some more shows of affection or we use it as a time to plan events ahead that are going to grow our relationship- like regular movie nights, perhaps a list of DVDs we need to watch together or committing to learn a new language together or something!

And yet I am mindful of the cynical me of 2 years ago. Mindful of those without a MITL™ or WITL™. And that perhaps brings me to my biggest revelation- it is not what others think about you, but what you think of yourself. Perhaps I will use part of the day to reflect on things I like about myself. It can be hard to accept compliments, but I am constantly receiving them from the gorgeous MIML™. Yes, I am lovely and beautiful and sexy and all the things he says. Even though I sometimes doubt it, I know he believes it and I am growing to believe it myself.

So the plan is to make it a day that doesn’t get caught up in the commercialism and accept that positive attitudes towards oneself are warranted.

Ok… so the googling for a suitable theme may not have worked. Yes, I know… The theme I put up yesterday was borked. Very borked. It didn’t let anyone leave comments and, well, I didn’t know how to fix it so I did the whole thrown my hands in the air, which in turn hurt my wrist so I spent a long time searching for a suitable alternative.

I actually put up 11 other themes before this one. One of them is pretty awesome and allows for all sorts of customisation, but I’m not ready to go there yet! Another was a little funky, but had some weird glitch in the side bar and tried to put this stupid bullet line thingy next to everything and looked really weird!

So I stuck with a classic style look for the time being. I might try and alter some of it at some stage, but don’t hold your breath!