Ms Fifikins

I have been quiet of late. Lots going on. 27 sleeps ’til MIML™ and I head to Hong Kong and Macau with day trips into China.

I have never been one to draft blog posts, but I have 4 on the go. I want to blog about some of the funny experiences I had as a vicar’s wife. I want to reflect on losing my religion. I want to reflect on film classification and trying to slow ones kids from growing up too fast. I want to reflect on motherhood. Plus I have quite a few recipes to share. But the mental capacity is not there really. I am making an appointment to see my GP this week (well realistically I will be lucky if it is this month!) to discuss options.

I have been experiencing panic attacks again. This has been happening for a couple of months, but I only admitted it yesterday. Anxiety. I experienced periods of anxiety and panic attacks a few years back. I tried antidepressants but in the end decided they didn’t really help and some of the side effects weren’t that pleasant. But I am willing to try another one. Maybe. Well I am willing to talk to a doctor about it.

I wonder what to share on my blog at times. A friend is always talking about a friend of theirs who is always sharing too much online. They describe it as a train wreck, but at the same time admit that they want to see what is happening in this friend’s life.

I receive a report from Google Analytics each morning (or thereabouts) that recently tells me most of my readers come from google. If I put a post up it then changes to direct hits or the places I tend to pimp my blog, but even the other day when I put up a couple of posts google won with the majority of visitors.

I have looked at the keywords people use in the past. Remember this post? I hardly ever go to the actual google analytics site and see what people are looking for, but was surprised today when I did.

It seems there are people out there who find this site by looking for information on:

• recipes- jarred chops sweet and sour, millionaire’s shortbread, bagels and orange and almond cake. (I must do share some more recipes in posts…)
• Information on toads and their eradication. (Cool as this is a topic close to my heart)
• Various information about goldfish and guppies (not sure what info people will find here, but at least they are looking)
• Sex. (Actually there are quite a few people looking for kinky stuff… And some of it you should be ashamed- yes I assume your Aunt and Uncle do have sex!)
• Tonsils (Yes, it was still a horrid experience)
• And lots and lots of hits on reflections on various things including music, movies and weight.

It appears people find my miscellaneous whatnots. Whether they like them or not is another matter. It appears that if people do find them they don’t necessarily comment. I suppose I am trying to argue that because articles here are fond and found multiple times, some of which appear to be found by people actually looking for stuff that is important to them, then perhaps I am doing the right thing in sharing.

It is hard to know what to share and when to share and how to share. To wear one’s heart on one’s sleave means it can easliy be broken, but I hope I will be richer for the experience.